SATURDAY may 16

I love Him
I can not help it. Love and devotion come with my submission.
Yet he does not love me, it sounds like he is not sure he ever will ever love  me in  a romantic way. This saddens me greatly as a woman but as His sub I need to accept it and move forward knowing  that my love may always be deeper than His.  Or may never even be returned from HIM. .
I have all the old ghosts of insecurity rising up to challenge me tonight.
Why am I not good enough to love? What can I do to improve ?
Am I such a horrific Submissive that no Dom will ever love me?
And want to keep me safe and as theirs ?
He said he does not like Daddy officially yesterday, yet he feels so much like a Daddy to me... I am feeling a bit lost in who i am and where i fit in his world. I am not sure He knows to be honest.
The bind between a submissive and her Dom is so deep if they allow it to be.
I am stressed  over Him leaving for work, I know that i come pretty much last on his list of priorities and I have accepted  this truth and reality it still sucks when i do not get time with Him.
I have no idea how much time I will actually have with Him. I do not even know if I will get to go spend any time with him during the week once I am out of school for the summer.