the last week was pretty good. I got some time with Sir on Monday, during which we were able to reconnect both on an emotional level and a sexual one.
We talked about what got me in trouble last weekend and I have not been freaked out about it since.
I find it intresting that I am able to let those things go when I am dealing with Sir. It is a nice feeling, not one I am used to actually.
The week flew by and I saw Sir on Thursday evening when he dropped Tom off. We had dinner and snuggled on the couch. I would have lived to have sex but he was tired and I completely understand that after working all day and then driving for 3 hours to get home.
I was good when he said he had to go and I kissed him goodbye after he tucked me into bed. I as always would have loved more time with Him but this is what we have right now and I am going to deal with it.
I was sad and still confused by the news that the room he rented does not allow overnight visitors. ...I must admit that th ere is a part of me that was like " if he does not want me to come spend a week with him he should just say so." However once thay thought formed I realized that if I was willing to believe that then we had bigger problems than time constraints. SO I am actively choosing to believe that Sir has no reason to not be honest with me. I am learning to trust agaian, not always easy I have been hurt pretty deeply by people I trusted who did not tell me the truth about things. THEY are not the one I call Sir now though. He trusts me, he has never lied to me why would he start now?
Hushing all those questions takes a great amount of trust but I am doing it and that makes me feel good.
Last night I got my foot caught in my bedspread when I was getting up and I fell, spraining my ankle and maybe doing some tendon damage in my foot. Sir sort of kept up with what was going on and did check on me a Few times.
Today was weird though I did not even get a good morning text which seemed strange. I have heard from Him a little since then, he is busy doing a birthday thing with his daughter, and I understand I just could use some extra snuggle time since I am restless and out of sorts. I will get a little bit tomorrow or at least I hope I will.
I am feeling very restless already and I am not supposed to be doing much this week.
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