Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Ponders of a lonely kitten.

My Sir has gone  to work on another city for the summer months. He will be home most weekends but that time will mostly be devoted to His family.
I am struggling with this a bit because I had gotten very used to seeing him for a about 6- 12 hours a week(2 evenings a week) well since he is gone I am not getting that time and I really missed it last night.
The grown up part of me understands, the strong submissive in me knows her place and that His family comes first and that the kids need him especially the boys  when he is home.  His wife needs him too.
But the other parts of me just want some of his time. I am doing my very best to not get all weirded out and think he won't want me or has found someone new. That is the part of me that I have to keep a handle on so it does not become a a raging storm.
I honestly do not think I need to worry about that. I would feel better if He would /could tell me he loves me, but I also understand that this is his first real D/s relationship so the emotions are new. A love of a Dominant for His submissive  is different then the love of a boyfriend for his girl. Sir says I am slowly building a hut in his heart to live in, so I will trust that he Is not looking for another  and won't leave me with out some sort of cause .  This is a good exercise in my trust building  not only for me to trust him but for me to trust me and for him to trust me. Maybe the separation will have good impact on our relationship.
Hoping to see him this weekend.
Traveling on a new road.
Kit

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