"How do you know you are submissive or have the potential to be submissive? How do you feel when you express your submission?"
I know I am at the least a submissive and more likely a slave, for many reasons.
I have been " submissive " in non lifestyle ways for my entire life. I just thought they were how one treated others.
I have always fed my partner before myself, asked what i should wear, cooked the foods he liked- to the exclusion of things I like.
It was not until after my divorce and being a "submissive wife" ( in the terms of the church ) for 23 years that I learned there was a name for it and it had a place. However even an a child my goal my job was to make life as easy for others as I could. I a greater number of ways it was a relief when i did finally figure out it had a name and a place for now I only really have to worry about making those i serve lives easier.
I know that I am a submissive because I have tried not to be but that only makes me very unhappy and crazy on a bad way.
The expression of my submission is the joy in my soul-
I feel complete.
I feel wanted.
I feel needed.
I find happiness,joy and peace.
I am able to stop the outside world and focus my attention on just the one I am serving. I find this to be extremely centering and calming for me.
The flip side of all of those things is when I feel or fear that I have failed almost anyone in my life that I really care about. The idea of letting anyone down can sometimes overwhelm me so not i do my best to stop and focus on the fact that I only have to make those i call Sir happy.
